Hope

Hope is such a powerful word, so many people hold on to it just waiting for something to happen. They do whatever it takes to keep whatever strength they have going. It's what keeps them up at night.

I know my hope was lost a long time ago, 7yrs ago to be exact. I hoped with everything I had that my brother was okay, that he would walk through the door at any moment and give us all a hug. I prayed so hard for him to just be alive. I honestly believe that's when I gave up my faith for god. He let me down, took someone away from me that I loved, someone I was going to need to grow up. I blamed god for all my rage, for not hearing me out. I honestly don't think I can ever get over my brothers death, he was a huge part of my life and to know that here I am 7yrs later still holding on amazes me. I could have given up, but I held on.

When I came out everything changed, I was happy for once. I had a few bad moments along the way, dated the wrong kinds of people, screwed up friendships, and made mistakes. My hope was finally brought back when I met a boy, he seemed to truly bring the light back into my life. I couldn't have asked for a better person, but of course being the kind of person that I am, I screwed that up. I cheated. Something I thought I'd never do. Now here I am suffering everyday for my mistake, I miss him like crazy. He was everything to me, my partner, my best friend. I know I screwed up royally, I would give anything to have my second chance to prove that things would be different. You know that saying "You never really know what you have till it's gone" I didn't realize who I had, I was too blinded by my selfishness to see my hope. I was drowning in my rage to hold on to what I had. I'm an idiot, I'm a liar, I'm a cheat. I am truly holding on to have my hope back. I'm not perfect, I'm a person who is willing to change, who has seen their mistakes. I love him with everything I have to offer. I hope that someday he will see, who I am. The person he first fell in love with.

Forgetting

I am so ready to get my life back on track, I feel like I've lost my way. I am so happy to know my family and friends are by my side, I really wish that I could have started therapy today I really needed it. Man I've got so much going in my head at one time I don't know what to do with myself.

Breaking

Well I'm back, it's been awhile but here I am. B and I aren't together anymore, and I've just been dealing with it. A lot of changes have been happening in my life, I'm back to talking to old friends, it almost feels as if they never left. I'm gonna start going to therapy pretty soon, I figure I need to better myself for the next guy that walks into my life. I kind of had a break down last night which made realize a lot about myself. That I've been through so much more than this, no guy is worth my tears. I'm young and I have plenty of time to find someone else, who will understand me. I closed a hard chapter in my book, but I'm ready for the next series to come. My life can only go up from here. I realized I have people who do truly love me and will always be in my life, and no guy will ever get in the way of that. So for now I'm gonna do me and I'll live my life to the fullest, I think I lost track of that. But I'm back and I'm here to stay.

Back To School

Song for today is Get Out of My Way by Kylie Minogue. It's a great song really upbeat, seems to put me in a better mood after a long day of work. Her new album is really good I would def. check it out

So today I signed for my classes for Fall Semester, and honestly I don't feel I'm ready to go back. It's really scary knowing I am practically giving my time up to school and work. Free time is over for me pretty much. Lately things have been stressful with work as usual, life at home has gotten better, relationship wise things are back to normal. It's hard giving up someone you've been with for more than a year. Plus side I found out my next tat :) I'm getting Le monde a soif d'amour which means The world thirsts for love. I just fell in love with the quote, just debating where to get it. I kind of want it on my forearm but we will see how things go.

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Just Dance!

Song for today is Royal T by Crookers and Roisin Murphy, I heard this song while watching So you think you can dance one night and let me just say I LOVE IT! I play it at work all the time when Joe and I close. I'm always making up some silly dances to it.

Today was a really busy day, I worked for what seemed like forever. I got to hang out with my friend Jacob at like 2am, we went to IHOP and he watched me eat, then we went to Wal-Mart and shopped. I love hanging out with that kid he is really goofy and we are always laughing together. Joe got jealous cause he said that Jacob was stealing me, glad to know I have boys fight over me. I've been in really good moods lately, but I have my moments where I get sad when I think about B. I need to be in bed we have inventory tomorrow, ugh wish me luck.

P.S. Buy Lights Acoustic EP it's amazing!

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Moving On

Song for today is Millionaire by Travis McCoy, I love it. Just a great relaxing song, def another summer song. You just can't go wrong with it. I promise.

Well I'm single, so it's a pretty new experience, after a year and 2 months. I am back in the big pond. Not looking because I always feel its best for things to come to me, I'm just gonna go through everything day by day and see what's next to come. Me and Blaine are still friends, I care and love him. But this was the best thing for us. I've been through too many break ups to beat myself up over them or sulk, I tend to just pick myself up and move on, get on with life because it's the healthiest thing to do. I like to consider myself the Oprah of relationships because I give great advice but when it comes down to my own life I don't listen to myself. I'm sure everyone is like that though, but it's all good. I'm happy and sad at the same time, but that's a given feeling. Anyone been there, done that?

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Back in the game

Song to check out is One by Sky Ferreira she is a really good singer, currently only has 2 singles but has tons of covers. She is amazing and the video to One is really good. Def my summer song.

Idk what has been up lately but I am lacking on this posting thing :/ I don't mean to it's just I come home and sleep then go to work. My days off I am out and about. A lot has been going on in my family, so I've been dealing with that for a few weeks. Things with my dad not being ok with me being gay, I mean the issues just pile up and it's not fun but it's life. I did however get a new tattoo :) one of which I am proud of. It represents future and freedom, for when I have no more school, and I finally have established my life. I'll post a pic of it, it's probably my favorite tat ive gotten, I want to add more to it though.



Well I really hope I get back into posting, I miss it. No more slow days at work if it were id post from my phone but we shall see what's gonna happen :)

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It's been so long

Well I've been busy like no other, I haven't really had a chance to get at a computer in awhile. But I think I'm actually back for good. I've been having some pretty weird hard times lately. Blaine and I are doing good, work is good, family is good. But my thoughts are a mess, I was listening to this song by Matchbox Twenty- Push. I started crying a lot because it's reminded me a lot about my life and what's to come. I've been pushed down so much in my life that I don't know how I manage to get up every time. I've been having a lot of weird dreams about ghost and people dying. I really don't know what it is, or why I'm having these dreams. But I'm glad I have this blog to throw everything out.

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Secrets Don't Make Friends

Today's song is Monster By Meg&Dia, these girls are sisters and let me just say they are simply AMAZING, I've seen them live 2 times and met them both times. They know how to put a show on, their music is amazing. Check both of their albums out!

So today was a slow day, I really didn't want to work since we celebrated last night. The day was a total drag but hey I got paid for it so it's all good. I finally got to meet my puppy Honey B she is a great dane mix and she is super cute, she is very lazy for a 5 month old puppy and pee's when excited lol.

I watched this new show today on ABC Family called Pretty Little Liars, where a group of 5 girls are best friends and one of them goes missing, then a year later they start getting messages about their deepest secrets. It's pretty good, it sort of reminded me of Desperate Housewives and that movie Sorority Row. Sounds weird but the pilot episode really caught my attention. I missed True Blood :/ stupid ATT U-Verse didn't record it but I'll watch it on HULU later. Not much of a post just felt like typing something out. But I'm hoping for tomorrow to be a good day :) goodnight.

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Football Head

Song for today, Why You Had to Leave by Cascada. This is from her most recent album, my itunes is having a good day playing a really good shuffle mix. I have a lot of songs that I don't listen because I buy albums for a few songs, so I love days like this when shuffle plays good music. This song is just like all her other songs really upbeat club music with sad lyrics, I love it though!

Man oh man my week has been CRAZY! We are launching a new phone on the 16th so we are getting shipments of merchandise like crazy, we have to stay the 15th after closing to set the store up which from everything we've gotten is going to take forever. Then our marketing manager is coming the next day to visit so everything has to be perfect. My manager is totally awesome, she really motivates us, she jokes around with us a lot and we just have a great time working. So far for the month I'm right where I'm supposed to be at with my numbers which is great! I have a good feeling that I will pass my goal and get my promotion. Saturday is a great day, the new guy is finally going to leave our store, 2 weeks was a long time. He half assed everything and was a total douche I got into 2 argument's with him because I felt he was being a child for not actually working and just playing on his phone. I don't really hate anyone but him his attitude and his personality are horrible, but it's whatever he is leaving and I wont have to worry about him ever again.

So tomorrow me and my coworker Joe want to party because our week was insane, I've really grown close to Joe these last 8 months I've worked in this company, I really don't know what I'd do without him. He's become my best friend and I'm sure if I ever get my own store Joe will tag along with me. (The picture above is something Joe and I would do.) But lately everything else has been good, my nephew is going to start staying with us while my sister goes to work which I'm so excited about because I'll get to see him more often :) Also I bought tickets to see a Twilight trilogy which I'm excited about (yes I like Twilight) I'm mainly excited to watch Eclipse it's my favorite book from the series. Also I am very excited for True Blood, June 13th. Weeds 6th season starts soon, and So You Think You Can Dance season 7 just started. I love SYTYCD because I used to be a dancer but I kinda just gave it up because I was also doing Baseball and Band. Which at the time were my biggest passions, I really do miss dancing though but I get my dose from the show. I just realized that this a really long post but I figured I owed it from my lack of posting lately.



Another thing I was thinking about the other day was why don't they have any awesome shows like power rangers, or Hey Arnold! Rugrats. I guess I grew up watching those that now a days everything that comes seems really dumb. When Power Rangers first came out I was obsessed, me and my brother got the weapons one Christmas and we also had all the action figures and movies. We used to get together with the neighbor kids and do role plays, I was always the Red one mainly because me being an Aries I took charge of everything. We would have about 8 or 9 kids that would play with us. So we had the 5 Power Rangers and the rest were bad guys, we split our weapons and used that to fight the bad guys. We got hurt a few times because having a bunch of boys with weapons trying to kill each other doesn't usually turn out good. I wish I had a picture to show of us role playing, I know I have one of me and brother with the weapons Ill post it when I can find it.

P.S. I found this funny. "this is an A to B conversation so C your way out,before D and E come F you up, G"

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Running

Song for today is Believe by Travis Garland I like the poppyness of this song and I don't know if that is even a word lol, but I enjoy singing this in the car especially the high note parts I'm sure I sound horrible but I love it.


WOW OH WOW have I been busy this past weekend was my brothers graduation and I was all over the place this weekend, I had a total blast hanging out with Blaine and Joe. Monday was crazy I worked forever and we were slammed at work which I have no idea how we managed to get through the night but we did! My new phone finally comes in the mail tomorrow I am super excited. Gosh I feel like I've neglected my blog but I really haven't I've just been busy with everything going on right now. This is my last month before I find out if I get my promotion and where I'm getting relocated Marketing Manager is watching my numbers like a hawk, so far I've been doing really well for the start of the month. My summer has started with a lot of fun I can't wait for the rest of it and I'm actually excited to go back to school in the fall.

More to tomorrow promise :)

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Old Friends

My song for today is Satellite Heart by Anya Marina, I heard this track on the New Moon album and I loved it (yes I like Twilight) something about the tone of this girls voice makes me melt, her whole album is actually pretty amazing Slow & Steady Seduction: Phase II is the name of her album.

Today was another normal day at work, memorial day was a pointless day for us to be open considering customer service was closed but the stores stayed open? what's up with that. All I know is we closed early and did whatever we had to do for today in the morning. I also just purchased one of our new phones can't wait for it to be shipped :). I've been drinking a lot lately but I believe I'm just practicing for when I turn 21. I love knowing that I can always turn to old friends even if we don't speak very often. Today I got to see a friend I haven't seen in over a year and had a blast just talking and drinking, it's sad how we lost touch but I hope after tonight that will change. At work I'm really looking forward to 9-5 all week :D. Well gotta go to bed now working really early. The picture above always makes me laugh.

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Really Late

My song for today was Can't Be Tamed by Miley Cyrus, I know a lot of people hate her and whatever but I really enjoy her music its very catchy and great to play while driving. This explains my last couple of days where I've actually been tamed by work, but this weekend that is all out the window.

Man oh man it's been a crazy couple of days, Thursday I did huddle up Houston and I had the best time of my life, giving back to kids and I painted for a good 9 hours. Met so many interesting people. I passed out when I got home I was so tired. Then Friday I hung out with Blaine all day spent the night so couldn't really post. Saturday I worked all day and went to a party that night with a few friends had a total blast, but I got tired really quickly from all the alcohol, then today I opened and I was still a bit tipsy from the night before it was a jam packed couple of days. But I think it's finally calmed down a bit.

I am looking forward to this week because I open practically everyday at work and then have the weekend off! Also we are releasing a new phone which I am very excited to buy because I get it before customers do :) Well I don't know what else to post but ill have something good tomorrow.

P.S. Pic above is what I painted with another coworker

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Late Night

So I don't really have a song for today, mainly because I need to be in bed to wake up at 5:45am for some volunteer work. At work we are doing this all day event called Huddle Up Houston where the store managers and who ever else volunteers to do it goes to a Boys and Girls Club to fix it up, plant flowers, paint walls, build things. It should lots of fun and ive been looking forward to this for weeks. So tomorrow ill be back to regular post :)

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Waiting

Song for the day is Second Go by LIGHTS, I've talked about her in previous post, she is an amazing artist always makes me happy even when I'm sad. Her music does bring me to tears sometimes but that's because I can feel the power behind her music, I love her so much.

Today was crazy, work was slow but I had lots to do. I'm so tired from my weekend adventures it finally caught up with me on Monday, Tomorrow I'm supposed to work at 7am inventory uggghh. Plus I found out some major news about our market today which I don't know if it's good or bad yet. But it seems like we are getting thrown into a lot of change lately, our store is going to become a playground store soon, new manager, new market. Not much has happened today, no crazy arguments with customers, nothing really important it was a really bland day.

Honestly right now I'm so emotional, but all this tiredness and what not I feel like something amazing is about to happen. Like I'm being brought down to my breaking point to realize something, and get some sort of experience of a lifetime. It's really hard to explain but when I think of my future my heart begins to race, my head spins. Maybe I'm just hungry? lol I don't know what these feelings are but only good things can come of bad things right? There has to be some light in the darkness. Guess I'll wait and see what's to come.

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Weekends

Song for today is Heads Will Roll by the Yeah Yeah Yeah's, when I first listened to the song I was in love with it from the start, I've always enjoyed the Yeah Yeah Yeah's ever since 10th grade when I heard Maps. Good song to listen to while driving.

My god my weekend was INSANE! Friday I worked had a total blast at work, everyone was in a good mood, Saturday I opened and got off early and had no idea what to do with my day, so I played Halo with my brother and went shopping, around 9ish I went to a party that turned out to be really fun, we drank, laughed, went hot tubbing, and randomly took a trip to Galveston just to have our feet in sand. I didn't get home till 4am, I met 2 people whom I spent my night with and they were fun. This weekend really got me pumped for the summer, Sunday was my recovery day so I didn't do much. Also I may not post Friday or Saturday, just because I usually close those days at work and I'm too tired to function, that or I'm out doing something and don't have the time when I do get home but that's life.

Lately things have been hard on me, I feel really emotional like I could break down at any moment, but I don't I'm so glad I've been trying to keep myself busy. It's really hard fighting with someone you love and have them pack up and leave, you really don't know what is going to happen next. I'm sort of in that in between state where you are trying so hard to hope for the best but you see it crumbling in front of you. I know this is the best thing to do, but I can't get over it. Heartbreak is such a disease.

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Tattoo

So this is going to be an early post because I'm not sure ill be able to post tonight, but my song for the day is Alejandro by Lady Gaga, I love gaga as much as the next gay man, she is coming to Houston and I bought my tickets. I can't wait for the show of a lifetime! But for some reason gaga inspires me to get tattoos, every time I watch a video or see a picture of her, I'm like tattoo? lol

Today was BUSY, I took my sister to get baby Gabriel's birth certificate we waited for a good 2 and a half hours, then my sister treated me to olive garden which was amazing as always, went to drop off some papers, then I took her home and helped her a bit around the house and bathe the baby. I am so tired from driving and sitting around all day. But I enjoyed spending time with her and the baby.

Also I've been getting that itch for another tattoo, I have 3 now but I want more. I am having such a hard time trying to pick something that I like and would have meaning to me. So far I've looked at getting a bird tattoo or a couple birds flying on the side of my rib cage meaning would be just my life, the struggles I have been through, that no matter the situation I have always kept going. Another idea was Rafiki's drawing of Simba from the Lion King, it would represent my childhood and how much I love Disney movies. I know that I will get it soon so be on the look out for a pic :)

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OH OH OH!

Today's song is Gangsta Paradise by Coolio. LOL jk It's what is currently playing and I was like man this song takes me back to my childhood with my brothers...BUT anyways, the real song is OMG by Usher, this song just make me wanna say OH OH OH! all the time, it's very catchy a big change from the old Usher but I like it. OH OH OH!

Today was fun, I had the chance to change things around the store with Joe we had a blast except Joe was complaining because I was being bossy :p not much happened today really it was pretty slow but tomorrow is the day I've been waiting for, it's my day off so I will be staying up all night playing video games, I have been so busy lately that nothing really pops in my head as much which is a good thing! But I have been a whole lot happier lately which explains the picture above. I am just excited for the summer, promotions, work, new puppy. So much is going on it's hard not to smile.

I saw this picture of a ninja turtle ice cream pop with the gum ball eyes and I was like geeeeeez I want one so bad, I would get those all the time. I remember as a kid we would gather up all our change we found around the house to buy them, I miss being a kid so much, playing hide n seek in castle park, which let me just say used to be an amazing park with the best hiding spots, going to play putt putt, go to the beach, or play with action figures. Me and my little brother were trouble makers, I remember one time we got a bag of beans and spoons, we would catapult them at passing cars, we also would throw water balloons. We were bad kids growing up. I was the one to influence him to do things, like one time I gave him a haircut with safety scissors, he had so many bald spots and I even painted his nails. My mom was pissed off because I did it, but now that I think of it I remember putting gum in his hair, and peanut butter lol I was bad what can I say ;).

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Get With It

Song of the day is Breakeven by The Script, my god this song gives me goosebumps I love it so much, I make sure to add it to every playlist on my ipod. This song is me X10 mainly because when I'm in a relationship I'm that person that goes out of their way to make that other person happy. I give them my trust and I wear my heart on my sleeve, but what usually happens is I get my heart broke. This song perfectly explains my love life.

But as my day it was pretty alright, new manager was fun I had to show her a couple of things, I got good news that my store is going to get a sales lead position which hopefully means I get promoted soon *crosses fingers* I've been working so hard on getting it, been working for it for about 5 months now, I feel like I deserve it. Yet again the new guy (he's been there for 2 months now) has been making so many mistakes it's insane, I've talked to him 2 times already, the man is 28yrs old and needs a 20yr old telling him how to do his job and have to talk to him more than once, I don't know about y'all but something seems wrong here. I'm just so stressed going to work to find out I have to fix his issues and hear of more mistakes. I think in his mind he feels he is doing no wrong, he needs a reality check. I would hate to be in his position though knowing that your co-workers don't like you and hope you quit. I really hope he gets things straightened out or finds a new job somewhere that will fit his wants.

Another song that I found to turn my day around was Take it off by Ke$ha, it was about the only thing that kept me in a good mood, that and Joe my co-worker/best gay friend, this song explains our personalities so much because when we are hanging out we never stop laughing, I look forward to seeing Joe at work all the time cause I know ill have a good time. We seriously have so many inside jokes (pago flex :D) I can't wait to be 21 because I can only imagine how we will be under the influence with how we act now being sober. Thanks Joe for being such a good friend :)


P.S. I feel like my blog is getting somewhere I have a few friends who read it and I have 2 followers :) which I appreciate the support thanks guys I'm really loving the feedback.

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Mario

4

So today's song is 3 by Britney Spears, I'm pretty sure that will explain itself in my post.

Well today Blaine and I had a double date with 2 of our good friends, we went to this restaurant named Cafe Adobe, Monday's are gay nights. Let me be the first to say I've never seen so many open gay men having dinner, it was lots of fun the boys had margaritas I was really jealous cause I wanted one. We had a 2 hour dinner, just eating and talking, swapping stories and meeting lots of interesting people. Well after dinner we are on our way home when we get stuck in traffic because of some accident and we get a text saying "we will be waiting for y'all." Let me just say I don't do this very often but our friends are pretty hot, so we get to their place and well you know the rest from the song above lol. It was definitely an experience, a fun one at that.

But anyways tomorrow our new manager starts and I have to open with her which I'm pretty excited about I really hope everything goes well and we get a bit of change in our store. Well off to bed I go have an early morning.

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Baby Gabriel

Well last night I lacked on posting because my sister had me over to help her out with her baby, hes about to be a month old on the 25th. But for some reason he has been having lots of trouble sleeping and so has my sister so I thought id be a nice brother/uncle and help out. Turns out I fed the baby, burped him, changed him and he slept a good 4 hours with his uncle :) my sister was so relieved to have slept some. All this babysitting has really made everything clear that I want kids, and that I know ill be a good dad. It is so natural for me to take care of a baby and it's my first time! Above is a picture of my nephew when he was released from the hospital. Well I figured I post a bit before I took a much needed nap, tomorrow is back to working at my store with our new manager, I'm excited for a bit of change.

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Mario

Strawberry Festival

So I haven't posted in about 2 days, I've been working this festival we have in town this weekend and let me just say TEXAS IS WAY TOO FUCKING HOT, like seriously I never experienced such bi-polar weather. Friday it rained on us everything got ruined, Saturday we were stationed next to the stage which was another terrible idea because we couldn't talk to people and we had no lights so we sat in the dark playing hangman for 3 hours and playing with a helium tank lol. Sunday we were there from 10-3 it was soooooooooo hot, and my marketing manager dropped by he wasn't too happy about how the weekend turned out. I am tired and currently laying in bed, this weekend was one for the books. I know for sure not to ever do something like this again unless we have more people and a better order system. The only fun part was meeting other people from other stores and getting to hang out with them and joke around. Hopefully tomorrow will be better since I'm off work.

P.S. I promise that what's left of my day I will post about what happens.

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Mario

I Wish You Were Here

If their is one artist who can always turn my day around is LIGHTS she is amazing, her music just makes you feel better about yourself. Her song Face Up speaks to me in so many ways, her whole album THE LISTENING is worth every penny.

So today I worked another long shift, not much happened, no crazy customers it was a pretty chill day. Which for me isn't good because I tend to think a lot when I'm not busy. Lately I've been thinking a lot about my brother, he passed away when I was 13. I can't even begin to explain how hurt and lost I was. He was the most amazing person ever, you spent 2 minutes with him and he had you laughing and smiling. Before he passed away we had gotten into a big fight, and I told him I hated him. That still haunts me to this day, because that same day he went missing. We looked everywhere for him for days just searching and trying to find any kind of sign that he was ok. At the end of the week I had a football game at the high school where we marched, as I was on the field I got the worst feeling in the world my stomach turned into knots and I just knew something was wrong. After the game we went home, my brother-in-law picked me and just the look on his face I knew they found him. When I opened the door I heard my mom and sister crying, I had this small hope that he would be in there hugging them, but they looked at me and I knew that he wasn't coming back. Everything I knew went out the window, I broke down to the extreme, I cried so much that I can't remember his service or wake. That was the hardest time in my life, but I grew from it to become who I am today. I know that my brother is proud of me and everything I have done with my life. On September its going to be 7yrs since he passed, but I love him more than anything and miss him. I would give up so much to just have him back.

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Color My World

Well today's song was Silhouettes by Swimming With Dolphins, the song pretty much is about a past lover and trying to get over them, although the song has a very bouncy beat the lyrics are sad.

Today I worked pretty much all day, played games on my phone because we had no customers, yet everyday we do get those couple of crazies that walk in. This girl walks in and starts shouting at my co-worker about her grandparents bill being really high...turns out grandma was texting (maybe sexting grandpa? lol) but I don't think either customer understood that. He tried to explain it as best as possible but they didn't comprehend they just wanted something to be done about it thing is bill was already posted, there was nothing we can change. I just don't understand why people don't read fine print, or make sure to know what they pay for first. It's pretty much I want I want I want. I know I do my research on something I'm going to invest in before I go all gun ho about it. My question is has anyone ever had an issue like this happen? and what was the final outcome? Customer is coming back on Tuesday which I work so I want to be prepared to handle this.

But onto the fun portion of my day :) I got together with some old friends from High School after work, we chalked up our local park like the good old times. It was fun laughing and not worrying about everything. Sorta takes me back to last summer when we thought it was cool to ghost hunt. One day during the summer we went back to my old house in Galveston which survived the 1900th Storm, I told them of a true story where one night my mom told me to call my brother down for dinner and I heard some really big footsteps walking about upstairs I know my brother wasn't upstairs because he called my mom after what I heard. So that became our place of adventure. Turns out my old house caught fire during the last hurricane, but we investigated anyways, we were so scared that something was going to get us. We got upstairs searched all the rooms looking for clues we freaked out when we heard a big bang come from one of the rooms. I swear we all bolted out the house screaming, me and my friends are the worst ghost hunters ever. I love my friends though, we plan to research more haunted locations and give it a go this summer, I can't wait!

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Summer

Well today was another hot but beautiful day in Texas, I rolled the windows down everywhere I went. It was like a taste of Summer and boy am I ready for it! I think my summer song is going to be California Gurls by Katy Perry, it's really catchy and just makes you want to sing and dance.

A lot has been on my mind lately, its just constant thought after thought my two biggest being "why am I so angry all the time?" and "what if I'm not good enough?" both just seem to keep rolling their way back in. The first one being, I can be really happy and enjoying everything around me, but if someone says something negative I flip. I have no idea why negative things get me so angry, maybe its just the whole situation where I can be happy and someone says something to bring my funk down rubs me wrong. The other is more to my job, I'm trying to go for a promotion but I have really big doubts in myself that I wont get it. I know I can't be the only person out there that is going through this.

On a lighter note, I went swimming today bought some new swim trunks and a couple of T's. It was a very relaxing way to end my crazy day. Being in the pool reminded me of the times when I was in Junior High/High School and I used to throw end of the year parties. Me and my best friend Amanda would invite everyone we knew, we usually had a good turn out. Well I remember when we were in 8th grade, we threw one of our lavish parties, decided it would be tons of fun to have a water balloon fight when everyone got there, we even went as far as making shaving cream balloons. I think we bought like 8 cans of the stuff...needless to say it was a bad idea to have a shaving cream/water balloon war with about 20-25 people. What ended up happening was shaving cream got into the pool, into peoples eyes, the concrete was slippery from it. It was a hot mess, but everyone had a good time. I really hope that this Summer I will have more time to swim and hang out with friends.

Thanks for reading

Mario

The Intro

I really don't know how to start this off. I can do the casual my name is, I am this age, I do this and that. But I feel that is too cliche. The whole reason I'm starting this blog is because my mind is a big whirlwind of thoughts and crazy ideas, I do this every night before bed I will lay there and just think and think about my day and what I want to do tomorrow. I feel this can be a huge outlet for me and what goes on upstairs. Who knows I may even get some responses to my questions. What I look forward to bringing into this blog are my day to day stories about my life pretty much cause that's what blogging is about right?

I think I'm over the cliche now, so just a few things about me. My name is Mario (yes like the video game it drives me crazy when people say that) I am 20yrs old and live in Houston,TX. I'm gay, I'm going to school for Marketing, and I put mustard on my pizza (don't judge me lol). I love music which I'll be posting a few songs here and there for y'all to check out. I promise there is more to me but I am stuck in a rut at the moment. But hopefully later tonight I'll post about what happened throughout my day.

Well thanks for reading, I promise I'll get better and not suck so much :p

Mario