Really Late

My song for today was Can't Be Tamed by Miley Cyrus, I know a lot of people hate her and whatever but I really enjoy her music its very catchy and great to play while driving. This explains my last couple of days where I've actually been tamed by work, but this weekend that is all out the window.

Man oh man it's been a crazy couple of days, Thursday I did huddle up Houston and I had the best time of my life, giving back to kids and I painted for a good 9 hours. Met so many interesting people. I passed out when I got home I was so tired. Then Friday I hung out with Blaine all day spent the night so couldn't really post. Saturday I worked all day and went to a party that night with a few friends had a total blast, but I got tired really quickly from all the alcohol, then today I opened and I was still a bit tipsy from the night before it was a jam packed couple of days. But I think it's finally calmed down a bit.

I am looking forward to this week because I open practically everyday at work and then have the weekend off! Also we are releasing a new phone which I am very excited to buy because I get it before customers do :) Well I don't know what else to post but ill have something good tomorrow.

P.S. Pic above is what I painted with another coworker

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Mario

Late Night

So I don't really have a song for today, mainly because I need to be in bed to wake up at 5:45am for some volunteer work. At work we are doing this all day event called Huddle Up Houston where the store managers and who ever else volunteers to do it goes to a Boys and Girls Club to fix it up, plant flowers, paint walls, build things. It should lots of fun and ive been looking forward to this for weeks. So tomorrow ill be back to regular post :)

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Mario

Waiting

Song for the day is Second Go by LIGHTS, I've talked about her in previous post, she is an amazing artist always makes me happy even when I'm sad. Her music does bring me to tears sometimes but that's because I can feel the power behind her music, I love her so much.

Today was crazy, work was slow but I had lots to do. I'm so tired from my weekend adventures it finally caught up with me on Monday, Tomorrow I'm supposed to work at 7am inventory uggghh. Plus I found out some major news about our market today which I don't know if it's good or bad yet. But it seems like we are getting thrown into a lot of change lately, our store is going to become a playground store soon, new manager, new market. Not much has happened today, no crazy arguments with customers, nothing really important it was a really bland day.

Honestly right now I'm so emotional, but all this tiredness and what not I feel like something amazing is about to happen. Like I'm being brought down to my breaking point to realize something, and get some sort of experience of a lifetime. It's really hard to explain but when I think of my future my heart begins to race, my head spins. Maybe I'm just hungry? lol I don't know what these feelings are but only good things can come of bad things right? There has to be some light in the darkness. Guess I'll wait and see what's to come.

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Mario

Weekends

Song for today is Heads Will Roll by the Yeah Yeah Yeah's, when I first listened to the song I was in love with it from the start, I've always enjoyed the Yeah Yeah Yeah's ever since 10th grade when I heard Maps. Good song to listen to while driving.

My god my weekend was INSANE! Friday I worked had a total blast at work, everyone was in a good mood, Saturday I opened and got off early and had no idea what to do with my day, so I played Halo with my brother and went shopping, around 9ish I went to a party that turned out to be really fun, we drank, laughed, went hot tubbing, and randomly took a trip to Galveston just to have our feet in sand. I didn't get home till 4am, I met 2 people whom I spent my night with and they were fun. This weekend really got me pumped for the summer, Sunday was my recovery day so I didn't do much. Also I may not post Friday or Saturday, just because I usually close those days at work and I'm too tired to function, that or I'm out doing something and don't have the time when I do get home but that's life.

Lately things have been hard on me, I feel really emotional like I could break down at any moment, but I don't I'm so glad I've been trying to keep myself busy. It's really hard fighting with someone you love and have them pack up and leave, you really don't know what is going to happen next. I'm sort of in that in between state where you are trying so hard to hope for the best but you see it crumbling in front of you. I know this is the best thing to do, but I can't get over it. Heartbreak is such a disease.

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Mario

Tattoo

So this is going to be an early post because I'm not sure ill be able to post tonight, but my song for the day is Alejandro by Lady Gaga, I love gaga as much as the next gay man, she is coming to Houston and I bought my tickets. I can't wait for the show of a lifetime! But for some reason gaga inspires me to get tattoos, every time I watch a video or see a picture of her, I'm like tattoo? lol

Today was BUSY, I took my sister to get baby Gabriel's birth certificate we waited for a good 2 and a half hours, then my sister treated me to olive garden which was amazing as always, went to drop off some papers, then I took her home and helped her a bit around the house and bathe the baby. I am so tired from driving and sitting around all day. But I enjoyed spending time with her and the baby.

Also I've been getting that itch for another tattoo, I have 3 now but I want more. I am having such a hard time trying to pick something that I like and would have meaning to me. So far I've looked at getting a bird tattoo or a couple birds flying on the side of my rib cage meaning would be just my life, the struggles I have been through, that no matter the situation I have always kept going. Another idea was Rafiki's drawing of Simba from the Lion King, it would represent my childhood and how much I love Disney movies. I know that I will get it soon so be on the look out for a pic :)

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Mario

OH OH OH!

Today's song is Gangsta Paradise by Coolio. LOL jk It's what is currently playing and I was like man this song takes me back to my childhood with my brothers...BUT anyways, the real song is OMG by Usher, this song just make me wanna say OH OH OH! all the time, it's very catchy a big change from the old Usher but I like it. OH OH OH!

Today was fun, I had the chance to change things around the store with Joe we had a blast except Joe was complaining because I was being bossy :p not much happened today really it was pretty slow but tomorrow is the day I've been waiting for, it's my day off so I will be staying up all night playing video games, I have been so busy lately that nothing really pops in my head as much which is a good thing! But I have been a whole lot happier lately which explains the picture above. I am just excited for the summer, promotions, work, new puppy. So much is going on it's hard not to smile.

I saw this picture of a ninja turtle ice cream pop with the gum ball eyes and I was like geeeeeez I want one so bad, I would get those all the time. I remember as a kid we would gather up all our change we found around the house to buy them, I miss being a kid so much, playing hide n seek in castle park, which let me just say used to be an amazing park with the best hiding spots, going to play putt putt, go to the beach, or play with action figures. Me and my little brother were trouble makers, I remember one time we got a bag of beans and spoons, we would catapult them at passing cars, we also would throw water balloons. We were bad kids growing up. I was the one to influence him to do things, like one time I gave him a haircut with safety scissors, he had so many bald spots and I even painted his nails. My mom was pissed off because I did it, but now that I think of it I remember putting gum in his hair, and peanut butter lol I was bad what can I say ;).

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Mario

Get With It

Song of the day is Breakeven by The Script, my god this song gives me goosebumps I love it so much, I make sure to add it to every playlist on my ipod. This song is me X10 mainly because when I'm in a relationship I'm that person that goes out of their way to make that other person happy. I give them my trust and I wear my heart on my sleeve, but what usually happens is I get my heart broke. This song perfectly explains my love life.

But as my day it was pretty alright, new manager was fun I had to show her a couple of things, I got good news that my store is going to get a sales lead position which hopefully means I get promoted soon *crosses fingers* I've been working so hard on getting it, been working for it for about 5 months now, I feel like I deserve it. Yet again the new guy (he's been there for 2 months now) has been making so many mistakes it's insane, I've talked to him 2 times already, the man is 28yrs old and needs a 20yr old telling him how to do his job and have to talk to him more than once, I don't know about y'all but something seems wrong here. I'm just so stressed going to work to find out I have to fix his issues and hear of more mistakes. I think in his mind he feels he is doing no wrong, he needs a reality check. I would hate to be in his position though knowing that your co-workers don't like you and hope you quit. I really hope he gets things straightened out or finds a new job somewhere that will fit his wants.

Another song that I found to turn my day around was Take it off by Ke$ha, it was about the only thing that kept me in a good mood, that and Joe my co-worker/best gay friend, this song explains our personalities so much because when we are hanging out we never stop laughing, I look forward to seeing Joe at work all the time cause I know ill have a good time. We seriously have so many inside jokes (pago flex :D) I can't wait to be 21 because I can only imagine how we will be under the influence with how we act now being sober. Thanks Joe for being such a good friend :)


P.S. I feel like my blog is getting somewhere I have a few friends who read it and I have 2 followers :) which I appreciate the support thanks guys I'm really loving the feedback.

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Mario

4

So today's song is 3 by Britney Spears, I'm pretty sure that will explain itself in my post.

Well today Blaine and I had a double date with 2 of our good friends, we went to this restaurant named Cafe Adobe, Monday's are gay nights. Let me be the first to say I've never seen so many open gay men having dinner, it was lots of fun the boys had margaritas I was really jealous cause I wanted one. We had a 2 hour dinner, just eating and talking, swapping stories and meeting lots of interesting people. Well after dinner we are on our way home when we get stuck in traffic because of some accident and we get a text saying "we will be waiting for y'all." Let me just say I don't do this very often but our friends are pretty hot, so we get to their place and well you know the rest from the song above lol. It was definitely an experience, a fun one at that.

But anyways tomorrow our new manager starts and I have to open with her which I'm pretty excited about I really hope everything goes well and we get a bit of change in our store. Well off to bed I go have an early morning.

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Mario

Baby Gabriel

Well last night I lacked on posting because my sister had me over to help her out with her baby, hes about to be a month old on the 25th. But for some reason he has been having lots of trouble sleeping and so has my sister so I thought id be a nice brother/uncle and help out. Turns out I fed the baby, burped him, changed him and he slept a good 4 hours with his uncle :) my sister was so relieved to have slept some. All this babysitting has really made everything clear that I want kids, and that I know ill be a good dad. It is so natural for me to take care of a baby and it's my first time! Above is a picture of my nephew when he was released from the hospital. Well I figured I post a bit before I took a much needed nap, tomorrow is back to working at my store with our new manager, I'm excited for a bit of change.

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Mario

Strawberry Festival

So I haven't posted in about 2 days, I've been working this festival we have in town this weekend and let me just say TEXAS IS WAY TOO FUCKING HOT, like seriously I never experienced such bi-polar weather. Friday it rained on us everything got ruined, Saturday we were stationed next to the stage which was another terrible idea because we couldn't talk to people and we had no lights so we sat in the dark playing hangman for 3 hours and playing with a helium tank lol. Sunday we were there from 10-3 it was soooooooooo hot, and my marketing manager dropped by he wasn't too happy about how the weekend turned out. I am tired and currently laying in bed, this weekend was one for the books. I know for sure not to ever do something like this again unless we have more people and a better order system. The only fun part was meeting other people from other stores and getting to hang out with them and joke around. Hopefully tomorrow will be better since I'm off work.

P.S. I promise that what's left of my day I will post about what happens.

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Mario

I Wish You Were Here

If their is one artist who can always turn my day around is LIGHTS she is amazing, her music just makes you feel better about yourself. Her song Face Up speaks to me in so many ways, her whole album THE LISTENING is worth every penny.

So today I worked another long shift, not much happened, no crazy customers it was a pretty chill day. Which for me isn't good because I tend to think a lot when I'm not busy. Lately I've been thinking a lot about my brother, he passed away when I was 13. I can't even begin to explain how hurt and lost I was. He was the most amazing person ever, you spent 2 minutes with him and he had you laughing and smiling. Before he passed away we had gotten into a big fight, and I told him I hated him. That still haunts me to this day, because that same day he went missing. We looked everywhere for him for days just searching and trying to find any kind of sign that he was ok. At the end of the week I had a football game at the high school where we marched, as I was on the field I got the worst feeling in the world my stomach turned into knots and I just knew something was wrong. After the game we went home, my brother-in-law picked me and just the look on his face I knew they found him. When I opened the door I heard my mom and sister crying, I had this small hope that he would be in there hugging them, but they looked at me and I knew that he wasn't coming back. Everything I knew went out the window, I broke down to the extreme, I cried so much that I can't remember his service or wake. That was the hardest time in my life, but I grew from it to become who I am today. I know that my brother is proud of me and everything I have done with my life. On September its going to be 7yrs since he passed, but I love him more than anything and miss him. I would give up so much to just have him back.

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Mario.

Color My World

Well today's song was Silhouettes by Swimming With Dolphins, the song pretty much is about a past lover and trying to get over them, although the song has a very bouncy beat the lyrics are sad.

Today I worked pretty much all day, played games on my phone because we had no customers, yet everyday we do get those couple of crazies that walk in. This girl walks in and starts shouting at my co-worker about her grandparents bill being really high...turns out grandma was texting (maybe sexting grandpa? lol) but I don't think either customer understood that. He tried to explain it as best as possible but they didn't comprehend they just wanted something to be done about it thing is bill was already posted, there was nothing we can change. I just don't understand why people don't read fine print, or make sure to know what they pay for first. It's pretty much I want I want I want. I know I do my research on something I'm going to invest in before I go all gun ho about it. My question is has anyone ever had an issue like this happen? and what was the final outcome? Customer is coming back on Tuesday which I work so I want to be prepared to handle this.

But onto the fun portion of my day :) I got together with some old friends from High School after work, we chalked up our local park like the good old times. It was fun laughing and not worrying about everything. Sorta takes me back to last summer when we thought it was cool to ghost hunt. One day during the summer we went back to my old house in Galveston which survived the 1900th Storm, I told them of a true story where one night my mom told me to call my brother down for dinner and I heard some really big footsteps walking about upstairs I know my brother wasn't upstairs because he called my mom after what I heard. So that became our place of adventure. Turns out my old house caught fire during the last hurricane, but we investigated anyways, we were so scared that something was going to get us. We got upstairs searched all the rooms looking for clues we freaked out when we heard a big bang come from one of the rooms. I swear we all bolted out the house screaming, me and my friends are the worst ghost hunters ever. I love my friends though, we plan to research more haunted locations and give it a go this summer, I can't wait!

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Mario

Summer

Well today was another hot but beautiful day in Texas, I rolled the windows down everywhere I went. It was like a taste of Summer and boy am I ready for it! I think my summer song is going to be California Gurls by Katy Perry, it's really catchy and just makes you want to sing and dance.

A lot has been on my mind lately, its just constant thought after thought my two biggest being "why am I so angry all the time?" and "what if I'm not good enough?" both just seem to keep rolling their way back in. The first one being, I can be really happy and enjoying everything around me, but if someone says something negative I flip. I have no idea why negative things get me so angry, maybe its just the whole situation where I can be happy and someone says something to bring my funk down rubs me wrong. The other is more to my job, I'm trying to go for a promotion but I have really big doubts in myself that I wont get it. I know I can't be the only person out there that is going through this.

On a lighter note, I went swimming today bought some new swim trunks and a couple of T's. It was a very relaxing way to end my crazy day. Being in the pool reminded me of the times when I was in Junior High/High School and I used to throw end of the year parties. Me and my best friend Amanda would invite everyone we knew, we usually had a good turn out. Well I remember when we were in 8th grade, we threw one of our lavish parties, decided it would be tons of fun to have a water balloon fight when everyone got there, we even went as far as making shaving cream balloons. I think we bought like 8 cans of the stuff...needless to say it was a bad idea to have a shaving cream/water balloon war with about 20-25 people. What ended up happening was shaving cream got into the pool, into peoples eyes, the concrete was slippery from it. It was a hot mess, but everyone had a good time. I really hope that this Summer I will have more time to swim and hang out with friends.

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Mario

The Intro

I really don't know how to start this off. I can do the casual my name is, I am this age, I do this and that. But I feel that is too cliche. The whole reason I'm starting this blog is because my mind is a big whirlwind of thoughts and crazy ideas, I do this every night before bed I will lay there and just think and think about my day and what I want to do tomorrow. I feel this can be a huge outlet for me and what goes on upstairs. Who knows I may even get some responses to my questions. What I look forward to bringing into this blog are my day to day stories about my life pretty much cause that's what blogging is about right?

I think I'm over the cliche now, so just a few things about me. My name is Mario (yes like the video game it drives me crazy when people say that) I am 20yrs old and live in Houston,TX. I'm gay, I'm going to school for Marketing, and I put mustard on my pizza (don't judge me lol). I love music which I'll be posting a few songs here and there for y'all to check out. I promise there is more to me but I am stuck in a rut at the moment. But hopefully later tonight I'll post about what happened throughout my day.

Well thanks for reading, I promise I'll get better and not suck so much :p

Mario